Something distracts me from no where …

I thought it was my eyes but they were just innocently watching, the ears but they were just listening to the surrounding voices, the nose but it was just smelling, the tongue but it was just moving inside my mouth, the skin but it was just feeling the air around me … aren’t they doing the job in order well described to them ?

The wind pushes the water to clean itself, the water pushes the dust to clean the surface, the dust settles to clean the air, who is disturbing whom and why ?

Though I like it or not I will be forced into this recycling chain of nature and only to come back clean. But the pain of losing the existing, the unclear freshness state of being visible and more over the inner echo of survival keeps me on toes of excitement. Until I myself realize that I got into a well known state of presence from the state of absence the world statically stays around me, supporting me and my state.

The distraction is acceptable if it’s moving me into a better state of purity and unacceptable when it corrupts me and I just react like any other thing in nature, which is natural and lawful in the universal establishment.

Physically forcing me to “an experience” which isn’t of my interest is what ? If this is unforgivable then why just one ? there are many acts that fall under this category. While I was supposed to deliver the truth to this planet about the affairs of future, it’s so unfortunate that I got reverse engineered and got trained to act in haste and chastisement.

 

Master some thing isn’t right … isn’t it ?

When I wake up I pray to you Master to give me all the freedom to think, act according to your wish and let the day bring in new light into every-ones life in this universe.

Few things that nature teaches which I hardly remember during the day, everything takes time and it’s own course, a seed to grow into a plant and then a tree and then giving fruits takes ages. Same thing applies to many things in and around me. Still I lose patience on many things – things that I am not responsible for, things that are not in my control, things that aren’t meant for me to worry, things I want to see changed, things that are growing around me without my support and willing, …

The nature around me is so calm and still active, alert and at your service. I was supposed to be one among these – the sea, the wind, the rivers, the mountains, I don’t think there is enough of patience left anywhere in me.

Master, its your command that brings a life on this earth, you give provision, shelter, courage to establish, wisdom and strength to succeed, yet you permit me set my own rules and execute them on your behalf. Well, the strings belong to you and yet I get the freedom to pull in my own way till you tighten it to direct on the right path.

The day passes and I start seeing the sun fading on me but in reality it is rising up for my other friend in other corner of the same world. The darkness brings its own color with fruits of sustenance. Though there were many things I could have accomplished, I still give up with out driving because the need wasn’t clear. I believe I need more of you in me to keep me alive … yet I sleep with all your belongings spread around me … with all hopes that I would see them with new morning …

Thankyou for you running through me … where me is still with you …